Big news of the day is that Kaya lost her first tooth! She has been super excited for weeks (actually, years) about her wiggly tooth and today was the day. We’ll have to see if the tooth fairy can manage a visit tonight (he has been a little stretched lately, but I think will pull it off). In the hospital, Maggie had a good day although is feeling crummy tonight. I think she has actual engraftment syndrome (with that other stint being pre-engraftment syndrome). I’m hoping we can manage with Tylenol and lasix and avoid more steroids (and the PICU), but we shall see. She did have some neutrophils in her blood today, so here’s hoping for even more tomorrow. Is 500 too many to ask for?

Our hospital room is only so big, so keeping a baby entertained can be challenging. One way I try to mix things up is by giving her time in the different places in the room – her crib, my bed, her highchair, the floor (on a playmat), and on the chair. I think the chair is her favorite because she feels like a grownup, and because I let her watch movies on my computer. Her physical therapist tells me to give her lots of playtime in the “high kneel” position pictured here. I’m not entirely sure that watching movies in that position is what PT had in mind, but I think it still strengthens her gluts, right? No movement on her blood counts today, which is discouraging. She is still feeling okay and today they stopped her steroids to try to get a handle on her CMV and stopped her pain medicine (because I don’t think she’s in pain anymore). So we wait and high kneel.

Same old today at the hospital – Maggie’s blood counts have not budged and her neutrophil count was nearly zero today. Today was the first day her transplant team admitted they were “a little” worried. Median time to engraftment for cord blood transplants is 22 days, and we are at day 17, and we know that CMV delays engraftment, so it’s too early to actually worry. Except of course I’m worrying. But she is feeling pretty good and played most of the day. She also had more of an appetite today and she pulled up 5 times today, which is 4 times more than yesterday. Tommy came for a while today and I hear the older girls had a day filled with museum-going, blueberry-picking, and goat-feeding with Gammy, Yoya, and Dylan. I didn’t take any good pictures today, but here’s a nice one from the weekend before we came into the hospital.

No big updates today except Tommy came to visit tonight! Maggie was very excited to hear a version of ‘Brown Bear, Brown Bear’ with slightly different intonation. Otherwise we are status quo – counts were not worse today, which I was thankful to see. Hoping for some upward movement soon. Here’s Maggie giving mouth care to Elmo, the newest star of the blog, apparently.

We had a downright boring day here in the hospital – Maggie is getting slightly more stamina every day. However, her counts were disappointingly much lower today. It worries me a lot, but her transplant team is less worried (or refuses to admit their worry). She is now on treatment for CMV as her viral copies keep going up (I thought maybe this is why her counts dropped, but her team doesn’t think so), and she is barely eating. On the plus side, her butt looks a little bit better. Looking forward to having Tommy and the girls back in town tomorrow. At least Elmo is here to keep us company.

Finally I got a real smile from Maggie today – she is clearly feeling a bit better, although also still so tired. She can only play for a limited amount of time and trying to get her to move around on her own is tough. At baseline she has to be coaxed to crawl or walk, so you can only imagine getting her to do it on steroids after several weeks of being held or in a crib. But luckily for Maggie, mommy the drill sergeant is staying with her. But we had a great day despite my pushy ways. Her ANC fell ever so slightly today (to less than 500) so day 1 of engraftment has to wait. I think all of her neutrophils went to her not-yet-better butt. I got to facetime with Laney who told me she is STILL at the beach, and I barely got a wave from too-cool-for-school Kaya.

Today we celebrated July 4th with a neutrophil count of >500! Hopefully it will continue to rise and those neutrophils are donor cells. And that her new immune system is strong enough to fight infections but not too strong to fight her body. Just small dreams we have. Maggie had a pretty good day – they are starting to wean her pain meds, her nausea meds, and her steroids. Still not much of an appetite, but I did get a half smile today. But not nearly as big as this smile from Laney at the Duck 4th of July parade. Missing my other munchkins a lot today on this American birthday! May Americans remember that all babies deserve comfort, safety, and love, even babies that may not all be exactly the same. Feeling blessed to be able to cuddle my youngest baby tonight.

No big news today from the hospital – Maggie is about the same. I got her to crawl x 1 “step” today and she was whining about it the whole time. Getting her mobilized again is challenging and she’s lost a bit of her appetite tonight. Blood counts are steadily climbing (but still low), her lungs seem a bit better, but she has a terrible diaper rash despite my best efforts, and her CMV viral load is going up and she will likely need treatment soon, which makes it harder to get the fluid off her lungs and can harm her kidneys. But all of that we expected. Worst news of the day is that Grandma Baba has a cold and she is therefore banned from the hospital. I also learned that Duke has their own compounded diaper rash cream – UNC should totally do the same because a similar cream we got from UNC had a $600 copay! Sorry no smiles today to take a picture of. I hear that Kaya and Laney climbed a lighthouse, saw the Incredibles 2 and had a crab feast in Duck.

This is a picture of Maggie eating bacon! She only had a little, but her appetite is coming back and I am pretty excited about that. Unfortunately she is still having fevers, but she has pretty classic engraftment syndrome and I’m still hopeful that is all it is and not an infection. We had a pretty standard day, and Maggie has a WBC count of 0.8 (800) today – hopefully that continues to climb. Still no smiles today though. Funniest moment of the day was when the cleaning person came into the room. Usually they clean the toilet/shower and mop the floor. But today, she cleaned the toilet/shower and then turned to us and said, “Sorry we don’t have any mops today” and left. It’s just another mopless Monday, I guess. Word from the OBX crew is that the day was filled with Duck Donuts. Tomorrow is Monuts Day on 5200 though, which I think is superior to Duck Donuts anyway.

Maggie had a slightly better day today than yesterday, and even ate half a cracker this evening. Still no smiles. And her white blood count is 0.4 today – it’s too early and that number is too small to get excited, but it’s a least a first hint from her bone marrow that engraftment is happening.

Meanwhile, in OBX, the kids all hit the beach bright and early today. By noontime everyone was in chill out mode and I hear claims that all the kids were asleep by 7:45 tonight. (Maggie, however, was not.) Here’s most of the OBX under-10 crew with the exception of baby Miles (and Maggie)